I advise human beings not to dig into themselves, otherwise, they will find that everything is appearance, full of nothingness and lies. Life has no essential meaning, it only relies on desire and illusion to function.
I recently read Shi Tiesheng’s "Broken Pen", he said:
"When I have healthy limbs, I often complain about the bad surroundings.
After being paralyzed, I miss the days when I could walk and run.
I developed bedsores a few years later, and I miss the time I spent in a wheelchair securely in the previous two years.
Later, I got uremia and missed the bed sores.
It's been another few years. I need dialysis. I have very little time to wake up. I miss the time of uremia. "
Life will always be worse. It may seem that you are extremely disgusted and doing nothing now is the most common day in your life. Of course I am not telling you to just accept your current self and your current life.
I just want to tell me that chaos is the essence of the world, laziness is human instinct, and God cannot change it.